Thursday, January 14, 2010

God, sometimes I don't understand....

There's just times that I just don't understand life. Here's some things that have happened lately that I don't understand...

- I don't understand why hubby got offered a job, resigned his old one, then the job fell through. Why did he have to go through this? why didn't he just not get offered it? I'm sure God has a reason for it, I just don't see it or understand it!

-I don't understand why I've been so blue lately. I have a very blessed life. I have an Awesome Savior who loves me & died for me. I have a wonderful hubby who takes great care of me. I have 3 wonderful, healthy kids. Yet I've been blue. I just don't understand it!

-I don't understand why hubby has a job that takes him away from us. I am very thankful he has a job. And it has been nice to travel with him some. But it's so hard having him away from me & from the kids. I just don't understand it!

I probably have lots more things I don't understand like why God's people suffer & the evil people prosper, why disasters happen, etc... BUT I know without a doubt that GOD is in control! I know He has it all in His plan! I also know that His thoughts are way beyond what I'm capable of thinking so even if He tried to explain it all, I couldn't understand it! So I'll just TRUST. He's provided for us thus far & He will provide until He takes us HOME!! He's proven Himself faithful time after time after time. So I'm trusting in HIM even when I don't understand!

Wednesday, January 6, 2010


So we are getting a lesson in waiting. Don't you hate it when things are going along quickly & things are changing & looking good & then suddenly everything stalls! Hubby had possible job change (still away from home, but closer to home) it's stalled & we don't even know if it will happen.

At first I got all tense & worried. What if it falls through, what if he loses current job, what if, what if, what if! The "what ifs" will get you every time. They start you in a downward spiral. First it's just a minor downer & then you get thinking worse & worse scenarios. Before you know it you are stressed beyond reason & your blood pressure is up & you're snapping at everyone. You've lost your trust! So I stopped, prayed & pulled out my Bible.

Philippians 4:6-7 says "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer & petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."

So, we are still waiting for this issue to be resolved. BUT I'm at peace! We are praying. We have our friends & family praying! I know that MY GOD will work this out for Good. He has all this in His control & even if we don't like the answer, He is in Control!!

I know waiting is hard, but trust God! He works all things out for Good! And He has plans for you & me! Plans to prosper you & not to harm you, plans to give you hope & a future!(Jeremiah 29:11)